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Don't know.

 I don't know what is going on in my head, my life. It feels lonely and I am not sure where I am heading any more. 

I have never feel this depressed ever before and I feel all my life choices have led me to this place where I am all alone. It is a difficult thing to keep going on in life with this thought that no-one loves me and never has. 

I can't sort out if these feeling are real or part of life changes as I am growing older. Some times I think I am confirming these thoughts by not having any one to talk to. I have never lived in my head so much. But I seem to not move on from this feeling of no happiness.

And I hate my job to top it all - not sure my feeling are consequences of the job or the dislike of my job is the consequence of my feelings.

And on top of that I am not feeling physically well either. God what is happening in life.